Father

how far back can we remember 

it is difficult to rewind 

maybe a picture 

like that one 

me in your arms 

I remember feeling 

the scruff of your beard

and you, smiling back

memories, being in your midst

and with it, an undercurrent of your emotion

which would wash, cleanse

or bulge, suspend me, in fear

mid years, our ocean expanded 

life placed us like buoys

In harbor of harbored feelings 

While out of each others sight

 winds ripple white the surface as you age

 we seek, yet drift, in familiar current

you show me wounds of your own past

and i show you mine, with struggle,

a wait for your nod

desperate that you are not angry

can waters just be still

for there is blood in the ocean

there is hurt in our waves

foghorns bellow under dark skies

and there is blood in the sea

left only to wonder

was it you…

Or was it me